I memt an old school friend and e hit off really well for about three weeks, it was amazing. But I am quite a reserved girl when it comes to feelings and emotions. Been single for 2 years and so has he. We both lived with our respective partners and we’re both in the same boat. However, I feel as if he has started to back off, as I dont really respond to him the way he wants me to. I want to as well, however, everytime I think, I am going to try and be my old self, I get my foot in my mouth. I show no emotions, not a care for his troubles, dont even stand near him, when I know he’s going to hug me, I automatically move away although I dont want to.
Now he’s doing the same thing, and after 7 years of not liking anybody, this guy is everything I know i want to get to know. I am very attracted to who he is, when we are together he cant help but stare into my eyes, and always delays leaving the party or me.
but when we are supposed to make the effort to meet up, I go on the I am busy, not because I want to but the feelings i have for him scare me into doing it without control, and he just backs off. He used to call or text everyday, and now for the past week I havent heard from him.
I did finally text him, to which i got no response. But he sent me a text asking me how the night was with my friends, telling me he wanted to come too, but had work.
I know the problem is me, but I am trying to be more open with him and at least show him that i like him too, but I am wondering if it’s worth it now, cos may be he’s just got turned off the whole idea of being with me. He is looking for an affectionate care free girl, who will care about him and somebody he can respect and take care of. I am exactly that, but i come off as an independant, I dont need anybody and dont’ share your problems with me in public. I never used to drink or party, and now thats all i seem to care about. I think he thinks that I dont have time for him or that we are a good match. It’s sad I am so used to pushing people away. I have no idea, how to let somebody i really want to know in.